Um she wont let me get rid of her. I tried so hard, I mean, she called me like four times today saying she can't let me go. Which I do not understand, she dates other people and it tears me up inside. Along with that, she has gone past the point of my trust via hurting me in my time of most need which was my collegiate competitions. So um I do not know what to do. I need to stop hanging out with her, as it is stopping me from moving forward. However, she will not let me, and women are the most scariest thing in the world to me, cause I do not understand them, nor understand how to strategize them, I just can't get them. I could not have babies with her and I know she could not be trusted to busy her self on a farm without being unloyal and causing my inner need for monogamy which would hurt the children through a divorce. I can't do that. As a matter of fact I ruined my straight A's because she kept hurting me by being unloyal but not letting me go and be. I do not understand women, I just don't get it.
Along with that I need someone who does not peck at me for my constant wishing to read and write. That is what I like to do. This is even worse than when I was a teenager. When all I wanted to do was work out all day long. Then I had like four of them that would not leave me alone. I mean I would tell them that I wanted to be with this one and they would all still not leave me alone. Now, it is like I just have one and she will not let me go. All I want to do is read and write, if someone can't deal with that and stop peck at me for that then that does not work. As it makes my insides hurt when I have to hear somebody talking all down on me just for reading and writing. Been four years, I can't figure it out. This is worth than trying to figure out how to further the teleportation equation into a time travel equation.